So a friend of Marcus and mine sent us a gift for the baby. She said it was a gift that has been past down in her family for years and thought it would be something I would enjoy. Most of you have heard of it "Love you forever". I love this book. I remember seeing it at Barnes ad Noble all the time but I never actually read it. Marcus asked me to read it aloud. I read through it and made it until I got to the part where the son holds his mother and sings "I'll love you forever, I'll like you for always, as long as I'm living, my Mommy you'll be." I lost it at that point. I think that is the hardest part for me. I will be going through one of the most important times in my life and I will not have my mother there to share it with. It was hard enough to accept that she was gone before she met Marcus and she was not there to see me on my wedding day, but this feel even harder. I don't know if it is the whacked out hormones I'm going through but I have been thinking about her a lot lately. I know she is with me in spirit and I know she is watching over me, but i still wish she was here with me. I miss you mummy and I'll love you forever.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Pregnancy: Week 11 /Day6
So a friend of Marcus and mine sent us a gift for the baby. She said it was a gift that has been past down in her family for years and thought it would be something I would enjoy. Most of you have heard of it "Love you forever". I love this book. I remember seeing it at Barnes ad Noble all the time but I never actually read it. Marcus asked me to read it aloud. I read through it and made it until I got to the part where the son holds his mother and sings "I'll love you forever, I'll like you for always, as long as I'm living, my Mommy you'll be." I lost it at that point. I think that is the hardest part for me. I will be going through one of the most important times in my life and I will not have my mother there to share it with. It was hard enough to accept that she was gone before she met Marcus and she was not there to see me on my wedding day, but this feel even harder. I don't know if it is the whacked out hormones I'm going through but I have been thinking about her a lot lately. I know she is with me in spirit and I know she is watching over me, but i still wish she was here with me. I miss you mummy and I'll love you forever.
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I give this book to every new mother, it is an awful book and just thinking about it I start to cry.
ReplyDeleteI went through the same thoughts and feeling when I had Sophie, missing my mother horribly and just heartbroken that she wasn't here to meet her grandbaby. So I just talked to her a lot, in my head and in a written journal. You'll get through it -- there's lots of us Mamas out here to help if you need it. I know it's not the same, but we DO love you. :)
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